Have you ever found yourself cribbing about having a busy life?
Feeling tired of waiting for a lift for so long because you don't want to take stairs?
Felt so lazy that you didn't want to go to work/school/college?
Or even feeling so exhausted that you wished for a break where you could
just lie down on the bed all day and not worry about work/studies?
My name is Beena, and my story begins from here..
I was born in a poor family where we, my parents, brother and myself lived in a small room for many years.
While growing up, I saw my parents making many sacrifices for me and my brother.
They wouldn't buy anything for themselves so that they could fulfil all our wishes.
The small amount of money they earned, they invested it all in our childhood
to make sure we don't feel lesser than other kids around us.
I decided to focus on my studies and give my parents a better life,
the life that they deserve for all the hardwork and sacrifices they have made.
I finished my graduation and got placed into a Leading firm in Audit industry.
In the process of fulfilling my dreams, I took my body, my health for granted.
I was mentally exhausted.
I had become a workaholic and that was the time I felt that I needed a break from work and relax for some time.
I went to a doctor's clinic when I heard these 3 words which changed my life forever – I was diagnosed with Guillian Barre Syndrome (G.B.S).
It is a rare neurological autoimmune disorder which leaves your body paralysed.
The cause of this disease is still unknown.
My breathing was becoming more and more difficult for me while I was in the ICU.
I was in the hospital for 2 months on life support.
During these 2 months I had survived some near death experiences, including skin allergies and multiple infections.
There is no cure for this disease apart from physiotherapy to regain the muscular strength and bring back the erased muscle memory.
I was sent home from the hospital immediately after being taken off the life support.
My body was still fully paralyzed from neck down and I couldn't even lift a finger at that time.
I started my Physical therapy from home.
It took me 1 year to be able to take my first few steps with the help of a walker.
I had two options at that time, first was to give up
and accept that I will never be myself again and other was to keep pushing.
I chose to be my own miracle.
I practised more and more to learn how to walk with a stick,
how to go up and down stairs, how to sit and get up from a chair, how to turn,
how to get into a car, how to walk while carrying a bag on your shoulders.
I practised everything which could help me go to work without having any caretakers around.
Another year passed and finally after 2 years of hardwork I was ready to go to work again.
now whenever I see someone cribbing about having a busy life,
I tell them.. You are lucky! And it's a blessing..
This journey has given me many life lessons:
1. Count your blessing every day, because everything that bothers you at this moment is in itself a blessing.
2. Never ever let someone's words decide your destiny . Be your own miracle.
3. If you want something to change, you need to change something.
I still have a long way to go, but I have decided I will never give up my fight.
It's that door you choose will decide whether you will fly or live your life in a cage.